I don’t really know what goes into an open letter. I rarely share and pour my heart out online so this’ll probably take some time before I get to finish this. Here it goes…
Thank You, but…
I met a lot of people this year – from blogging events, common friends, new school. I made a lot of friends whom I’ve had the opportunity to make memories with. Thank you very much as you guys made me feel that I’m not alone.
To old friends whom I am no longer in contact with, thank you. You taught me the value of time and friendship and what it really means to have true friends. Thank you for making me experience all the shitty things and making me feel as if I was only needed when it’ll benefit you. Thank you, because you made me realize my worth as a friend and as a person and that I shouldn’t be a push over and someone who just follows people around.
To (my) family who were not even there during my darkest times, thank you. You made me realize that the people that you should call and consider family isn’t always blood-related to you. Thank you, because during the times that I needed emotional support, you guys turned me down; you made me stronger as a person and this has taught me to toughen up and learn to be independent. Thank you, because you taught me how I should act and how I should be as a parent when it’s my turn to have my own family.
To (some of) these people, thank you; but it’s time I cut the cord. It’s time for us to part ways and move on in different directions. It’s time I stop communicating and it’s time I start and build new friendships and relationship(s) with people much more deserving of my love, time, and attention.
To those whose heart(s) I broke, to people whom I had to step up to in order for me to get what I want, to those whose help I took for granted; I’m very sorry.
I promised myself that 2017 was the year that I finally put myself first. I was in certain relationships – work and personal – that no longer made me happy and made me feel boxed and locked up. I’m sorry for leaving. Call me selfish but it’s time I finally put my own happiness first.
To people whose hearts I broke, I’m sorry. I have no shitty excuse why I did what I did besides the fact that I want to be happy and do things that I know I deserve (to have).
Thank you as you guys made me realized that regardless of time and distance, when the friendship is true, it’ll always be there no matter what. I’m sorry for not being there all the time but please know that as long as you want me to be in your lives, I’ll be here for you.
To friends who are still my friends to this date, thank you for sticking around. I’m a tough person to handle as I’m hardheaded and opinionated, thank you for respecting that and for understanding why I do the things that I do.
Of New Relationships
Here’s to you! Despite the fact that we just met this year, you have been constant throughout 2017. You who never left my side when everyone else did. You who always turns shitty situations into fun and memorable ones. I love you (all)! There’s absolutely no need for me to mention names, I know you know who you are. Thank you for making my 2017 the best one yet. Thank you for pushing me to do what’s best for me and for motivating me to move forward with life.
To new friends who showed me their true colors and making me believe that not all (people) have the intention to hurt me, thank you! Thank you for making me feel loved, appreciated, and welcome.
I’m ready for another year which I bet will be filled with more rollercoaster rides. I’m ready to continue putting myself and my happiness first. I’m ready to keep the people who shows equal respect and love and cut off those who are toxic in my life. I’m ready for another chapter that I’ll be filling in with new memories with the people I love and who loves me back even more.
Take a leap of faith and begin this wondrous new year by believing. Believe in yourself. And believe that there is a loving Source – a Sower of Dreams – just waiting to be asked to help you make your dreams come true.
– Sarah Ban Breathnach
Cheers and wishing everyone a blessed 2018!