In liue of the International Women’s Day on March 8, I’ve decided to jump into the bandwagon of the treding hashtag which is #DearMe. The idea is to write something to your younger self and although this trend started in Youtube, I’ve seen some bloggers post theirs in their blog so I will do the same since I haven’t been that active in my channel.
I don’t even know where to start. Looking back, I’m definitely happy with the childhood that mom and dad gave you. At 3 years old, you were already travelling abroad and that’s something that you should be thankful for. Growing up, you were probably the luckiest kid in town – or so that was what you were told.
At the age of 4, your first dream job was to be a cashier. You were always with mom whenever she goes grocery shopping and you were always the one who hands over the payment. Mom asked you why you wanted to be a cashier, your answer was so simple: “so I can get all the money payment which will make me rich!” Oh that smile that you flashed when you said those words. But then months after, you realized it goes straight to the pocket of Henry Sy (yes, you did your grocery in Shoe Mart) and you started to cry because you felt sorry for the cashier lady for her money being “stolen” by this man. But then of course you later on realized what jobs are and how it works.
You went to one of the finest all-girls school in Manila. Although you lived in Bulacan, mom was eager to drive you back and forth from school. You were Ms. Popular all throughout grade school and you got every single thing that you wished for.
At the age of 8 (or I think you were 9), you were lucky enough to go and visit your favorite cousins in the US. And since then, it became a yearly tradition to have a month vacation there.
Fast forward to high school and the mala-MMK buhay starts for you. You transferred schools, you didn’t have friends, you got a culture shock, and most of all – you were guarded by almost everyone just because the school was owned by a family friend. Summer vacations were okay. You still get to travel once in a while although you were required by dad to do work in the business just so the both of you can have a father-daughter bonding time. He was a bit tough, you didn’t really see the point why he needs to be miles away from home just to be able to provide for you (and no dear readers, my parents are not separated).
Your grades went from straight A’s down to C’s. You began to hate everyone and you began to question everything.
I wouldn’t elaborate more. It’s just too painful just to think about it.
Today, you’re successful in the career that was handed out to you. Unfortunately, you didn’t become a lawyer. But the job that you have right now – it keeps you financially stable, it shows how great of a leader you are, and it shows that the summer “job” that you did for dad was all worth it.
In terms of friendships, you remained to stay in good terms with your grade school – high school BFF. You’ve found some good friends along the way and of course, the rest left when you were in your lowest point in your life. Because of these people, you became stronger and wiser. You realized who your true friends are and you should cherish and cling on to them for as long as you can.
You were taught to become independent and I am happy to say that at the age of 20, you were able to provide all your needs in your house. You may not have all the luxurious things and travels that you once used to get in a snap, but right now, you’re getting there. Just a little bit more. And as for your relationship status, well, let’s just say it’s complicated.
With lots of love and kisses,
Your present self ❤